Scared of Death (The Stranger pg 80-100)

Guilty as charged! This what the judge had to say since the beginning of the trial. Wether or not, he did it on purpose or not, Meursault did kill a man. I understood throughout the whole book, that Meursault had no feelings at all about anything around his life, however that does not make him innocent. It really shocked me when I read "It was then I felt a stirring go through the room and for the first time I realized that I was guilty." At first I got confused when I read this, and I thought he migh have felt guilty, but then I realized i was wrong. He said he knew he was guilty, but he was talking about the decision the jury was going to make, he did not feel anything.

I am also very impressed with how Meursault goes through the days. For the first time in the book I admire his personality. It is because of his lack of feelings that he can spend months thinking about his memories, and sleeping. I think that if I had to be in that situation I would probably get bored to death! I could never pass a day thinking about things that have happend to me before, because I would be sad all the time. I can not even pass a day in my house by myself! It is frustrating that Meursault's personality is this way, because in a way I really do admire him... Sometimes I overreact about little problems that at the end are not so relevant, and this is the time were I would love to be like Meursault! Is Camus trying to prove something by making Meursault guilty?